it's really stressing, to know the fact that my life is in a mess and i'm not making it any better. it sucks.
i want a job, i wanna get good grades, i wanna be smarter, i wanna be better, i want mummy to be proud of me, i want, i want, i want.. so much wants but none achieved. screw myself!
okay, for today, at least i'm trying to make my life better. i did try but maybe it's just not enough?
i'm studying for my science. looking at the cost of the fees somehow wake me up. it's not a really big amount to some others but to me, it is. i can't imagine myself still dreaming and not working any of my bones while my parents are working so hard for the family. can't bear that thoughts.
it's really time to listen to others & put down my pride. i've been 'arguing' back whenever someone talks to me about this & that, i'll find means to argue back. i've talked so much & it's really time for me to listen to what others have got to say. or, i'm not gonna learn.
how nice would it be if i were a little smarter? -ya, how nice.
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